Nirvana

I’ve been in a good place lately. No, I’m not talking about Palace BBQ, I’m talking about an emotional nirvana.

For a while I thought I was in a quarter-life crisis – I was telling everybody about the book and the theory. Yet I seem to have grown beyond all that. Work has been busy and slightly different, so the workdays are flying by.

Within the next year, MM wants to move to Seattle or (new idea from last night) Denver. Yeah, wtf – Denver?? I could see myself living in both places for 3-4 years, but not long term. Lately I’ve been removing stress from my life and trying to be happy every day. As a result, I can be optimistic about big changes such as moving to a new area.

The only thing that is stressful right now is figuring out how I can afford a sweet new Prius.

Small victory note: last night I finally beat that level 9 Giant Rat in Puzzle Quest.

Raindrops are falling on my head

I slept only 7 hours last night but I woke up this morning feeling better than ever. Maybe because it’s Friday? Maybe because I actually made it to the gym last night? Maybe it was that Haagen-Dazs strawberry ice cream I ate at 11 PM when nobody was looking? But most likely it’s because I’m actually working at the office today. I thought I’d never say it, but I’m glad to be in my cube, sore from last night’s workout and drinking a whey protein shake.

Thoughts

Looking back at my past blog entries, I realize that not much has been personal. Maybe that’s the unconscious point of my blog, to share with you what I think you’d like to hear. Well my apartment’s power went out last weekend and it forced me to do something without electricity. So I tried to read Harry Potter but instead I ended up writing in a journal that I had bought but rarely wrote in. My last entry was in January. So now I’m in a very introspective mood. These last three weeks haven’t been so fun. My job hangs by a thread, but that thread is strong enough to consistently pull me to a dismal, depressing office every day. The people I work with are great, but the product and the management are going down the toilet. Why can’t the company just go under and let us all go? We’re all waiting for it. To make things worse, I started getting headaches on October 17th and they are still lingering. No, it doesn’t seem like a tumor because it’s just headaches, but they make me tired, unenergetic, and plainly miserable. I went to the gym once with TM but couldn’t really get myself into it. Tennis seems to make me forget about it all, which shouldn’t be surprising. I really should play more often. And finally, Tivo is great, but I’ve realized that TV is not pleasant when you have a headache. At one point I had to just stop watching and sit quietly in my room to feel better. What a time to get Tivo huh?